Okay, that's not entirely true.
I can look into adoptive breastfeeding.
I can keep shopping online for fun baby stuff to add to our registry that I'm working on.
I can learn more about cloth diapers (holy OVERWHeLMiNG! This is about the only thing I don't know about taking care of babies and I can't imagine how new moms feel if they've never even touched a baby before!)
I can learn more about adoptive parenting, and parenting in general (PLENTY of literature to read, courtesy of Love Basket)
Or...I can just enjoy the fact that my "To-Do" list is actually empty. I have one person to follow up with in a couple days and then all we do is wait for approval.
So, I wanted to post since I slacked for so long and thought I would share this:
I was thinking about our training DVDs and all the new information to, you know...think about, and trying to learn all I can from what I was taught.
One of the parenting tips made in our training session was in regards to telling your child about their adoption. I can write a few small books on everything I've learned, but something new sticks out to me. One of the speakers made the point to her daughter in about these words, "Daddy and I aren't related, but we are married. And we are a family because of a promise we made to each other. And we made that same promise when we adopted you. You are part of our family now, because we love you. We will always be family."
If feeling like "the real mom" didn't hit home before, is sure does now. Every doubt in my mind is gone. I chose to marry my husband. And through hell and high water (and the good times, too), I've chosen to STAY married to my husband. If society can see our union as legally binding and the "best step" toward starting a family....than why can't we use the same promise to build our family? I don't want to be defensive, because I know a lot of people just don't understand adoption. I want to convey my realization (my epiphany...if you will...[that one's for you, honey]).
I promise, from this day forward, to have and to hold, to love and to cherish, in sickness and in health, in wealth and in want, this child whom God is placing in my life. His child. I vow to love him or her with all that I am. To put his or her needs before my own, and to honor and respect him or her until death do us part. We are one. By the power of God and the power of the law, our baby will be ours, and we will be his or hers. Ladies and Gentlemen, the Lewis Family is on a mission. Of life. Of hope. And of unconditional love.
I can't wait to hold my baby in my arms, whisper these words in his or her tiny little ears and tiny little heart. My husband was more than right (yes, I said that) the other day..."all of our dreams are about to come true..." I don't ever want to wake up!
Thank you for your continued support. I know I end almost every post with these words, but they are just as sincere today as they were the day before. We have a tremendous group of God-given family and "chosen family" who have been standing behind us since the very beginning. Words can't express our gratitude for the letters, emails, gifts, and other love we have received. Your prayers mean the world to us! Please continue to pray for our Birth Parents to be united in their decision to make an adoption plan for their baby. And for God to prepare our hearts, all of us, to be open and to communicate lovingly and sincerely. This is number one on our list right now. If we can have this, everything else will fall into place. Thank you, thank you, again and again.